爱你好像半暝坐火车啊
梦摇来摇去心惊惶
睡了一下惊醒一下
咪眼看窗外到了哪
你的爱就像星辰
偶尔很亮偶尔很暗
我不盼绚丽的灿烂
只求为光能挡风寒
是甘愿也就不怕难
不甘愿早放声哭喊
我要你什么都不管
倔强变勇敢茫然变释然
是甘愿所以能美满
不甘愿才会说伤感
我爱你心就特别软
平淡也浪漫无语也温暖
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im back blogging.
i've stopped blogging for a long time.
probably this time round, its too much to take it.
aching.
heart aching to be exact
somewhere deep in the heart feels pain, tears and wadever shit.

i wish whatever u say is just becos u are sleeping and u dont know whats happening.
i feel like shouting hysterically,i feel like giving up literally.

u wuldnt noe how it feels becos it doesnt affect u at all.

u have been changing too drastically for me to catch up, yet u can still treat it as nothing happen.

sometimes i wish to avoid it, keep it from u, hide it thought that i never know abt it or even realise it. i cant.


i feel super disappointed in u. very extremely.

i dun know how to treat u.

i want u to be wad u used to be desperately,
yet it makes me feel like im begging u for love.
when u start saying why shld i change, why shld i do this why shld i do that.
it seems to show me the fact that u are not interested in the relationship anymore, it hurts,

am i too demanding? i just want a boyfren who treats me good. is it that bad.
why every other girl could enjoy this without sacrificing bt i cant


i feel like giving up. i dont see a hope.
my hard work and sacrifices are not seen, u dun appreciate even understand
i dun wan to give in anymore.
u only know how to think of resting, im tired too
mentally and physically exhausted by the huge amt of work to do and part time job.
i hate it.
yet not being understanding, i know u tired, bt does it mean u can throw ur temper at me, flare at me and be impatient.
i'm tired too not just u
i let u get rest in mrt or wadever,
u give me that freaking look, i just take it,
u want to sleep throughout the whole night, i allow u.
everything u just wan to do it alone, den what for need me?
i think i can just leave.
u are happy without me.

u used to tell me u can timagine life without me.
i think u have forgotten abt it.

leave it.

i've tried too hard swallowing the rubbish attitudes and stuff u showed me.

im too tired.

are u still gonna change

do u still wan this relationship.

stop hurting.

心碎...