first day of work is pretty ok.
there's alot to learn.
and im gonna conquer it yaye.
dint have enough sleep,
cos was totally freaked out by some screaming near my block
and the screamings resembled like ......
which totally scares me.
i tot things might come back again
bt nah im just thinking too much.
tt explains the totally unhappie mood todae.

仿佛如同一场梦
我们如此短暂的相逢
你像一阵春风
轻轻柔柔吹入我心中
而今何处是你往日的笑容
记忆中那样熟悉的笑容
你可知道我爱你想你
怨你念你深情永不变
难道你不曾回头
想想昨日的誓言
就算你留恋
开放在水中娇艳的水仙
别忘了寂寞的
山谷的角落里
野百合也有春天
野百合也有春天-阿桑
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frequent usage of computer and blog hopping made me wanna blog.
starting work this tues...
im exciteddddd......
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i'm definitely happy with being u.
i realised i dint have ani courage anymore
to fight for wad i want.
i felt so inferior to other girls.
how much they could have been a better girlfriend to u.
compared to them, im such bad girlfriend,
being possesive , clingy and bad tempered.
upset not becos of other girls, becos of myself.
i dun trust myself in being a good gf to deserve u.
maybe i shld just give up shldnt i ...

welll....... seems like i've left this blog for ages.
OK. I M LEAVING OR RATHER I LEFT B FOR GOOD.
FOR GOOD.
shocking eh.
two weeks, wonderful two weeks in b.
hmm i dun mind working my heart and soul out for them
i dun mind rejecting other offers.
but still im too pissed off with the way they placed me in a situation where i dunno where to land.
thanks eh, kicking me around very good hur.
seriously, the treatment is so different.
u treat tt two Rs so good,
have u ever seen them wipe shelving for u.
or rather have ALLAN OR CAROL see tat.
blah wadever its over.
trying to spite me by asking R to take stock for u
yet he did one big mess and slowly.
make me laugh seriously.
so end of the story,
i tendered resignation letter.
and yaye.
freedom.
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so it happens to be they wanting to trsf me to central then china town den back to vivo and see where iam going to b transferred again.
it seriously upset me. and tt very day the stupid virus or bacteria or wadever tt is in my stomach starts to take effect.
something like food psn
worse still... i let dear see the unglam sight of me.
vomitting throughout the night.
somemore tt very night tt dear is staying at my hse.
yea practically laid on my bed feelign unwell for the next two days.
and served my one day notice on monday.
FREEEDOOOOMMMMM!

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i slacked off a few days and found a new job.
shant disclose what is it.
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JIUN JIA IS A HAPPIE GIRL FOR NOW.
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期待一个好日子
工作不需我操心
能随便想想东西
喔喔
喝一杯茶也可以
写封信也可以
不做什么也可以
忙碌中又想起你
对我的若即若离
生气了也没痕迹
喔喔
忽然很想拥抱你
吻你措手不及
这只能想像而已
honey honey
要对你说声对不起
我总是没时间陪你
honey honey
你是否想亲亲密密
还是喜欢这段距离
虽然留点空间不见面
反而能够拉紧彼此的心
当我需要拥抱的时候
我总希望你在这里
<3
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duno how to start this blog posting,
mc todae.
just feeling too shag i guessed.
work was alrite.
culdnt transfer to jp.
well...
wad can i do.
hmmm.
vivo's bossini is very busy
i wuld say i hardly have ani time to just breathe and enjoy.
i am happy to have such nice bunch of colleagues.
thou almost broke down twice in this coming two weeks of work.
prolly the sensitive nature in me make me think too much
plus the stress:/
oh well.
but overall was great.
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as for r.s,
im happy with wad i have currently.
just tt prolly im very paranoid.
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sometimes i wanted to let u go,
cos i always believe i am not good enough to b ur gf.
at least another girl could make u worry less and less tired.
yet im contradicting myself,
holding u tightly afraid of letting u go.
sometimes i feel very bad,
i dun even noe how to comfort u in times tt u need me.
i dun even noe how to cheer u up or understand u enough.
:/
bt still i'll learn okae?
muacks.
i love u .
do remember i'll always be by ur side
<33

havent been updating too much these days.
damn tired from work ,
its energy sapping thou folding clothes entertaining pple is easy
bt when it comes to standing throughout the day walking around
its reallie killing.
yet the most motivational thing is KACHINGS
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probably becos the not very used to be back to work feeling.
tend to feel stress again.
and tt explains why i get emo when things clump up together.
when u start balancing family frens r.s and work
its so ....
tough.
friends. i wouldnt like to see them emo.
i shant dwell abt it.
it hurts when ur closer ones get hurt or wadever
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work wise as above.
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family i would say i rarely blog abt them
i've always cherish time with family
sometimes not tt im not filial or wad
just tt i just need some space to breathe
after long day of work i wuldnt like to get filled with each and every pouring woes.
im not e onlie child at home
dun just come shooting me when i dun talk to u
sometimes i just need a bit of space.
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love...
still i tend to think negatively.
shouted at him when i was lost upon alighting at e wrong busstop
how much did i not cherish him
:/
i reallie feel like chopping myself.
tsk
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the past still haunts.
nightmares.
not about J
bt every fearful moments seems to b back.
made me even more paranoid