super lazy to count the number of posts... hahahha... yar... hmm life seems to better when i get my things to my control except for my stupid poor health ... cramps right start in e morning .. sian rite... some more its raining so cold... rawrrrr... hmm lazy to say too much things abt todae lar... hmm i just find john khoo resembles like jing quan .. aniwae nth much to sae abt him
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my dearest fren, i 've walked thru this before , i have made so much mistakes before , i know u know me well, i seems to be too harsh on u , i seems to be somehow overboard in my words, bt i care for u , i dun wish things to repeat its history ,i dun wan u to regret like me, guys are nt as sensitive ,he might nt knw what u are thinking and wad u want frm him , just give him some of his space , gain trust on him kae....my fren,
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this seems to be my clearest part of life where i see things clearly ,
wad i want an dwad i need
i prioritise my stuff alr,
i regret for the mistakes i made in r/s for the past few mths
nt saying tt i see wei kok wrongly ,
bt i guess we two started out too fast and ended it as fast
looked into the few yrs back ,
i met so much r/s
the one i cherished still stays in my mind, though i know its impossible animore,
the second one whom i cherished, i am sorry to hurt him too much tt i left him during the daes he needed me most,
the third one which is my first love and the onlie love tt i feel super sweet and perfect.. bt i guess we arent supposed to be together .
there are few which hated me a few which i stillcontact , a few tt still appearing in front of me ,
i haf made too many wrong choices twist and turn ,
looking back at it , i feel so foolish abt my immature acts
and while i see it happening to my closest ,
i cant stop them at all ..
or isit meant to be like tt so tt dey will realise like i do?
i hope so...
as for now, i am exploring my new future ,
will it lasts? its nt for me to say aniting cos life is so unpredictable
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some false hopes stills applies in my life,
just tt i dun appear to care abt it ,
just tt u dun seems so obvious tt i can actuallie feel it ...
aniwae,
<3 lun like i alwaes do?
hehehehe