118th post ... lalala.. waiting for zhao lin to come .. he's slow or rather SUPER slow ... aniwae haha .. hmmm... gt lots to sae so i shall divide into parts
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alwaes when u get too close wid ur fren,someone stepped in u tend to lose the attention frm pple
nt saying i am selfish or wad. bt since she entered .. i seems to be neglected slowly by u, haha sounded like stead bt its fren lar, i treated both of them like frens lar, bt hai... aniwae i wanted to care for e both of u .. yet i dun knw where to start . one emotional unstable , am i supposed to get ur penknife and throw it away or something ? evryone asked . why u dun seems to care abt her? nt like i dun . bt i dunknw how to start stopping u frm doing tis , i walked thru a small period of tis be4 long long ago .. no offence bt as u past the time period at a pt of time u will see how foolish are u doing tis to urself .. i wanted to console u bt i doubt i will console u till u are alrite..*this portion is continued when i just finished my tuition* wadever i can do i can just give u the support u need lend u the listening ear u need alrite . as for another , u are doing the same thing as her , u get stress becos u dun knw hw to do ur work and family problems yes i understand its nt like i am nt gg thru the same thing bt yar its nt worth it doing tis harm to urself . if u reallie wanna get out of this buck up and give some things up becos of some things like ur cca or stuff its never easy bt u hafta do it , the onlie ting i can do to help u is to console u and help u in ur work other than that financial i just can help tt bit of money others i reallie cant help ani more. yar.... see wad am i getting everydae,
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second thing , some how i think when i met on to this pt , i seems to neglect my frens for my studies , i wanted to go out wid them spending time wid them trying to close the neglecting part of me and them be it they neglect me or i neglect them ,bt tied up wid my tuition getting so wei nan abt my studies and my frens wad am i supposed to choose where am i supposed to give in to and sacrifice?
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3rd , its never easy managing studies together wid a part time job plus frens and stuff.
u can see me getting on well getting very hapie while i work bt its definitely tired after working and u still haf to force urself to do ur hwk ... its tough bt i am willing to go thru just a bit of sharing here and there for pt 3
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4th ricky's case
i am some how close to his frens making me awkard to dun knw hw to talk to them when me and him are getting on this stupid bad terms .things turn out to be like tis, cant change , i'll change myself my attitude towards u
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5th lun
i tink i am just afraid of the gap between us ... yup tt why must jia you to closen the gap .=)
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conclusion: life is full of problems , getting on well and not well at e same time in different part of life, counted good before i was so trapped wid cca and studies , things getting better bt nt in e frens part kind of neglected in both sides . other than that everything are doing fine, i am hapie i love my life , will i be able to change ur life too? who knoes =))
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