yeaps ... i guess my life recently revolves round my kors , my les , tuition , sch, work onlie ... super boring i supposed.. hang out usuallie wid tt blur gal sinyee, my les as usual , seng hoe and gordon ... night times usuallie wid alvin kor kor .. ya ... haha ...haf been keeping up wid both weeleng and alvin kor ... tuition will be zhao lin kor kor.. haha he reallie treats me like his sister .. aniwaes.... just boring life ... bt life is getting better when i start stopping myself frm tinking other stuff and is better when i start getting know more ppl and hanging out wid frens =)) actuallie its nth weird ... cos i am usuallie like tis when i am back to single hood ... mwhahah .. hope i dun get tired of single hood too soon ... hehehe ...work was alrite todae .. toured ard harbour front and vivo distributing coupons... saw some ppl i knw... =) den continued counter de work wid chito and elieen .. sad she left at ard 8 ... i prefer working wid her .. she's a nice young cute manager .. haha ...worked wid chito .. dint see edwin at all ... lolz... i am driving him crazy when i start pestering him to do tings for me ... haha ... was mad at chito at first cos i quarrelled wid him abt the drinks .. cos he prfer putting the drinks at e side .. i prefer putting at the table .. wadever .. den i start cleaning .. abit bu shuang .. den he came apologising .. haha he's cute la .. like to work wid him though sometime squite mad at him ... bt he helped me throw the rubbish frm the counter dustbin ... =)) hahah .. he made me luff lar.... nice guy .. edwin is also a nice guy also ... hehhe z.... helped charlie mopped the floor and left wid my things wid chawanmushi ... alvin kor missed me so much tt he keep msging me he missed me .. mwhahaha... i missed him loads too =)) hahaha .. talked to kian guan abt zy also ... bt nth much ba ...nt gonna watch them training tml cos i gt my stuff to be done and i am going to buy myself a new jacket too ... =))
i wanna watch more movies .. make sure u guys start jioing me watch movies .. esp alvin and weeleng kor kor .. since u all always meet each other must drag me along too lor ... hehehz... alrite gonna go off sooooooonnnn.. tired out...

kinda irritated... start gluing myself to my seat studying le . super tired ... nt enuff sleep recently .. getting quite upset abt him again ... just miss him ... dun dare to call him cause later he attitude me again ... u shld know who u are ... definitely nt zy lahhhh... haiz... see u online bt dun know wad to talk to u ... i am simply jealous of u talking to windy .. and yet i dunknow why u are angry becos i talk of zy ... aniwae .. just ending here... i am gg start flood myelf with work before i sleep so tt i cant tink of aniting other den studies...

simply tired and stuff... too much things to be done in little time .. kinda flood myself with work so tt i dun think so much... hope so ? love hurts .. haiz.... leaving for my work ... aniting contact me bahhhhhhh....... kinda feeling emo... so dun try to irritate me

its 12 plus nw ... used to tis sleeping time aniwae... just feeling tired be it emotionally or physically... reallie tired .. if i am gg till my limit i am gg to talk to the counsellor soon enough ... just plainly STRESS ... i dun appear to ... feel like sleeping aniwae...
haiz ... i just dun understand why do i still care for u la... be it i still love u or nt ... i stil wanna care for u stay by ur side and stuff... i still get jealous when i see something ishldnt be knowing ..
i know its my fault for like making u feel miserable abt zhi yong ... its my fault ... i am sorrry alrite... i just wanna wanna wannna care for u ... i wish things haf never happened we are still like the way we used to ... i am letting it go .. its pain bt haf to .. i just cant stop myself missing u ... my fault alrite my fault

flooded wid homework .. super tired after ytd work 5 ppl closing yet so slow .. haha me and edwin finished cleaning the counter before 1030 ... wakaka... so shiok when nth much to do .. yeadde... silly boy boy and me both busy at different times ... dun wanna disturb him do his stuff..<3<3 just abt to blog until here...
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=) #33 wkaka ... i ki siao liao

just wanna blog before i sleep .. super angry with this girl ... aniwae its some one i know and part of my frens knows her and i dun know wads her motive and stuff .. yes.. pls lar dun make me put ur "nice" name on my blog ... u can back stab me with 2, 3 yrs break up stuff i can also back stab u with the same thing ... dun be so bitchy oh pls ... i know i am .. bt u are just irritating me ... i am just tooo unlucky to haf some one who believes in u as a bf ... and my ex bf also .. nw tt me and him haf break u happie le rite .. so get lost out of my sight last warning or i'll post ur nice name and photo on my blog ... other than tis .. is other nice things making me smile ..yeaps
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<3 <3<3
he is my one and onli #33 in the team ... hehezz guess who?
muacks

i repeated tis post cos i tink too interesting liao .. mwhahahah
every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.
• give her one of your t-shirts tosleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful .
• look into her eyes when you talk toher.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes .
• look at her like she`s the only girlyou see.
• tickle her even when she says stop hold her hand when you`re around yourfriends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tellher you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`ssick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
write her letters .
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she`s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wantsof you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tellher.
• and when you tell her, love her likeyou`ve never loved someone before.
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wanted to changed my blogskin to something nice bt just too lazy to do it ... i super tired .. early in e morning woke up to pass documents to chito at yoshi ...guess who i saw? ZHIYONG! haha so coincidence ... yeadeyeade ... haha ... their match was a draw ... he's upset for nt performing well enuff ... my silly boy dun think so much la ... u can do better the next match de ... hugs wors... hmm aniwae gg off for work at 5 plus super tired aniwae.. yea .. done of blogging sorry i break my promise for nt filling u guys wit the details wad happened in yoshi ytd .. if i haf the energy i shall do so
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i am just afraid tis will be the next heart broken one...
just too afraid ....
though ur promises get rid of my fears
yet i think the wound dun take such a short time
as we walk along
it shall be removed ...
<3<3<3

hmmm... have a busy dae todae ... be it working or stuff for working i shant mention much too lazy .. think tmr den i'll fill u peeps in with details fun dae la... hmmm went see them training bought 2 of 100 plus, one for jun yan one for zhi yong tt silly boy... haha walked to mrt together .. had a nice chat with him ... i think i alr haf an answer in my heart bt i think i shant reply him until i reallie think i am ready to accept him .. aniwae ... yar ... he's just a silly boy to wait for me finish work to msg him tt's like so late and some more tmr he gt match .. such a silly boi .. aniwae ... i decided nt to think abt patching with ricky or jun yan cos is like meaning less if i alr no feelings towards them... yea... ya ...i just wish tmr they win the match yea? hahah .... gotta sleep soon ....
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i wish i can give u a chance
bt i am definitely nt ready for one
neither am i ready to give my things up yet ...
i'll know what to do soon enough ...
silly boy dun worry for my job la
i am alr used to it ... bt aniwae i just know u wun see my blog
so hahahha .... yeayeayea yeadeyeade....

101th post delicated to ricky
just wanna sae .. its no pt saying sry .. the hurt alrd being made ... the love is gone .. the you is nt the one u used to ... i am trying to forget we used to be ... u occupy too much of my life ... its een difficult to forget u ... if u ask me do i stilllove u ... i dun noe whether to say i do? the feelings in me for u is alrd fading ... i doubt i will still love u ... yes bt love u as a fren probably ... the words u sae , the breaking is too hurting , bt i cant do anything ... i onlie can act as if i am happy in front of peeps burying the sadness and pain within me ... there is too much things tt i dun know abt u .. it makes me vex about u ... bt just i am ending my post here ... i just wanna sae thanks for ur care and concern u gave and i believe we will be very nice frens

i feel very tired actuallie .. nt physically bt mentally or rather emotionally ... will i be able to let myself to believe in another person again? will i be able to give in as much love to him? haiii tis things wun happen too soon either .. i shal think abt it .. as for ytd nite les and nic asked me one question " will u patch with ricky if he wants it ?" ... i doubt so ba ... i think the hurt is alrd made .. even if i still stead with him back i wun be able to trust him nt loving pearline .. i dun wanna history to repeat itself for other cases ... i will see how things goes? if tt happens the decision will be made based on my thinking at tt pt in time ... i am still considering some stuff and i just wanna give myself my own space now to relax to rest to look at pple carefully ...

every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her.
even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.
• give her one of your t-shirts tosleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful
.• look into her eyes when you talk toher.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes
.• look at her like she`s the only girlyou see.
• tickle her even when she says stop
hold her hand when you`re around yourfriends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tellher you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`ssick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters
.• let her wear your clothes.
• when she`s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wantsof you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tellher.
• and when you tell her, love her likeyou`ve never loved someone before.
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found it in a frens blog ... quite meaningful .. rahh i forget wad i ttyped dint know i edited tis stupid post ...

haha found out something ... ya... shall nt mention .. bt mwhahaha... its sweet la .. bt see hw things goes... aniway ... ya gg offline le just to blog a few lines i also shuang

in e end .. we broke up ... several reasons ... dun wanna mention much .. i dun think its nice mentioning .. and ya ... i am moody ... dun try to make me even more moody .. and I DUN WANNA SEE U ANYWHERE(nt ricky la .. someone else .. ) i am super pissed with this person and dun let me see u again anywhere .. i dun know wads ur motive of doing this sorts of things bt i definitely wun treat u nicely as a fren ... wadever ... thanks peeps for concerning .. <3 u guys bt do let me haf sometime to walk through this .. its tough .. its hard bt i shall make it ... itsnt the first time getting heart broken ... i believe there will be times where my heart will be mend .. its just such a pity tt i actuallie made the 3 wrong decisions ... in e end ...i am left with nothing ... seriously if u are seeing this , definitely nt apply to the q and v , neither the r , i am sorry tt i hurt u tt time ... i am nt gonna sae anything bt i regretted tt i made this choice ... i dun see u online anywhere ... i just wanna talk to u .. i dun wanna u to avoid me .. this person is somewhere between i and k ,x and z ... solve the mystery urself ... anyway ending the post here ...

too used to the smell of detergent and stuff working at yoshi now sch starts i get too bored of not cleaning anystuff while i do the stuff in yoshi .. yup getting too used to there... just a normal dae doing nth much zhao lin tutor me during e evening learnt quite a lot ... he came too ... ya.. wanted t return something to him in e end i din due to zhao lin's words la... like tt lor .. i dun wanna sae much .. things haf come to this pt in time nt for me to decide .. i just want him back and wadever he wants i'll try to fufil ... used to tt puffy eyes had been crying like few dae? recently very miserable .. dun feel like eating even if eat oso a small portion of food at nite wanna vomit ... wads wrong with me la.? haiz ... just ending this post here ...
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i just want u back .. no matter how much we quarrelled tis few daes .. i believe there's something we can do abt it ... it lies with ur decision .. i cant help to attitude u bt my heart broken pain is overcoming me to make me upset abt u ..

haf alot to say .. evil boi and kind girl is on the verge of breaking so if i kinda of attitude u peeps i am sorry ... i love him and evrything i can do is onlie let him haf his own space to think abt this rs .. shant say much .. i seems to experience all the same thing within different relationship .. haiz ... it reallie makes me worry if did i reallie make the correct choice chosing him or not .. i believe its a right choice bt who knows .. i reallie love him i just hope he knows and understands . bt let it be lor my heart is alr broken further break it be it ... one dae when i break down .. just ignore me ... kay ?

finallie finish big part of my hwk ... just getting sleepy and stuffs... miss him lar .. bt dun wanna disturb him much .. wanna sleep ... few more hours before i go to work ... shall be another tiring dae ... stop myself from complaining aboutthese and that ... shut myself up lor... back to sleep or todae i'll die ..
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i love you ...
just wanna do things to let u to be happie,
just wanna see u treating me and loving me gd...
just wanna remain like this forever...
i just wanna u to care and love me ..
i just need a hug from u after a long dae at work,
i just wanna share wid u and u sharing with me yr feelings..
i dun wan anything expensive i just want ur love ur care =)
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yayaya...i am here to blog again .. its 2 27 am from my comp .. slightly tired though .. slept at 4 30 am ytd woke up 10 todae for tuition until 1 plus fell asleep frm 2 plus onwards till ard 4 wake up and went to work .. nt overtiring myself bt just wanna give myself some things to do .. yoshinoya isnt a bad place working actuallie its nice larh but alot of stuff to be done lor .. bt so far alrite larh ... ytd quarrelled with dear again .. my fault larh .. i shldnt be sticky to him bt cant help it lor .. just like tt lor .. sometimes when u 've been thru too much of stuff , u tend to get over sensitive towards some things lar .. yar... no much comments about relationship cos i reallie dun think its nice to sae out like tt . unless i reallie know tt person very well .. dun mean zhao lin or stuff are not close bt i believe its better to keep it to myself .. yawns think i'll be sleeping at 4 plus cos needa do hwk .. he doesnt know so dun bother abt it .. i love him la . i just love him too much tat its so difficult not to treat him well lor... hmmm yar... i rather u hurt me den stop me from loving u . tat's all ... gd nite ... i gotta go to start doing my homewrk .. mwhahaha

haha ... havent being blogging recently if i am not wrong... flooded by logarithms OMG ... thanks to zhaolin he actuallie helped me loads in my work thanks .. wahahahah .. bt i am simply dead with log.. yeaps ... anyway ytd nice dae larh was 14th okae.. haha dint plan to celebrate cos both of us by plan wasnt free.. bt who knows last minute we actuallie came out for dinner wakaka,,,, i love my dear loads .. walked to his house supposingly enough of 2.4kmwalk bahs .. haha den walked back to tiong ..wanted to eat at kopitiam silly me ... hmmm den he suggested to eat something better so we went griller .. nah the food was alrite like tt time i went wid the couple nb and eg . yeaps . den went strolling at the two months before when we started place.. lots of memories i started smiling and luffing .. yeaps .. bought dear ferero rocherthe promise like my blogskin.. yup and smart him went to put the choco with the little nice mushy slip into the fridge and evryone in his family saw it OMG its so embarrassing larh .. haha but i love dear . hehe just wondering why everytime he made me so agry and yet i love him so much
yar todae was a dyingday cos had 6++ hours of maths larh imagine u culd haf vomit once u see the log questions .. mwhahah .. yarh .. and went for interview in yoshinoya.. agreed on working fri sat sun nights .. okay larh happie enough larh .. dear and dino came to eat dinner with me at market .. yum yum.. den dear send me home .. cried lar cos i scared i dun haf enough time to pei him le .. lesser time to see him ... sob sob .. bt dear make me happie again .. hehe .. just love dear loads gotta go off kennedy kor keep wanting me to play msn games with him ... another silly man after chee kian ...

girl facts...
When a girl bumps into your arms while walking,she wants you to hold her hand.
When she wants a hug,she will just stand there
.When you break a girl's heart,she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers "I'm fine, "she is not fine at all.
When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are so wonderful
.When a girl lays her head on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says that she can't live without you,she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says "I miss you ,"no one in this world can miss you more than that.
When a girl is mean to you after a breakup, she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever.
guy facts...
When a guy calls you,he wants to be with you.
When a guy is quiet,he's listening to you.
When a guy is not arguing,he realizes he's wrong.
When a guy says, "I'm fine, "he means it.
When a guy stares at you,he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,he has the world.
When a guy calls you everyday,he is in love.
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,he means it.
When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you 'til your done.
When a guy says, "I miss you, "he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

haha took it from shawn lee(ctss) 's blog , just something random when i passed by randomly larh
for girls part to me quite true for guys i dun know
mwhahaha.. missing my dear like siao ...
hugs and kisses<3

had a quite nice dae wid dear went sentosa den ton at my hse with dino and nicholas... fun aniwaes.. lots to think and consider abt ..where shld i go ? which path shld i choose? both will be tough bt which one ?i reallie dun knw... lazy to post much gg off unwell

hahas... so sian ...changed anew keyboard so weird.. the challenger there de shop assistant service attitude very lousy so pek chek when i bought the keyboard... hmm nth much todae la... haha... just testing my new keyboard lorhhahaha....dun realie like cos too soft liao ... haha

hmmm finallie week end liao .. woah .. hahas finally managed to survive thru the week days long long week .. hmm got lots to complete including some personal cum studies stuff... a reflection for late coming plus a letter for quitting girl guides.. ya.. i am quitting no matter wad shit pride i haf for my uniform IAM GONNA QUIT! dun wanna be pestered by idiotic seniors dun wanna be chase by any teachers dun wanna attend wasting time and not interesting meetings and trainings dun wanna be stress becos of ranks and people like them .. dun wanna affect my own studies with it .. ya wadever even if my last resort to join iLc i also wun mind.. if i cant get into art club la.. cos girl guides is reallie wasting my time for my studies la.. might as well dun go liao le .. a good chance to quit.. why lei cos its speech dae lah ... haha... hmm for reflection for late coming i reallie dun knw wad to write .. its just late coming waiting for zhi qi yet dun wanna let the teachers to find her trouble .. thinking wad to write lah...i am ruin becos of this alrite.. sian .. hmmm ... almost haf one test per dae for the whole week ,... supposingly gonna fail my languages .. science ard B grades .. maths more confident larh... haha ... just gonna find a part time job earning my tuition fees and get tuition for studies ... this is the time to work hard and chiong to my targeted poly courses ...went out with les and bf plus my darling haha.. double date.. haf fun .. vincent came to get his things... shoo off ... haha... just like tt i am gonna end my beloved posting hahahaha.. if i am free tmr i 'll come back and blog
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when i look at u ,
u are the one making me happie yet sad
u are the one making me disappointed yet joyful
u are the one making me angry yet love u tt much
i just love u
i just wish to love u more and more