another boring dae again.. somehow caught the flu bug . .. reallie sick.. sianz.. nvr ending classes .. dislike miss janet tan's irritating voice la... nearly get kan by hong lao shi just too lucky to get thru without my txt bk yeah.. stpid biased if get caught by her i confirm die .. miss khoo damn nice :D hehez.. den had a lot of fun in miss tan wenyi's chem class.. paper chromatography
mrs wang is making me confused with all the poa things
shall nt talk abt work liao getting stress up as test comes.. argh
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wadever it is .. argh i cant stop myself frm thinking stupid things
like wad i mentioned ytd..
i also dun understand why i mind it so much ...
bt whenever tt pic flow past my mind ..
u know ...

some random post.. while some rubbish gets into my mind i wanna spit it out..
i shall nt mention straight away to u cos u told me u are unhappie with me whenever i mention her name .. so i shall spit my rubbish here and leave it here la.. if nt i reallie dunknow who toapproach and sae it to
i promised u i wun mind abt her , u and her was the past alrd yet i can't stop myself from minding abt her and u . i know u probably dun love her anymore . i can't help stopping myself frm minding the past.. when i see her i reallie thinkam i cherishing u enough like she used to? am i showing enough care and concern or even love to u like she used to ? am i giving u enough attention like she used to ? am i too harsh to u all sorts of things... i reallie dunknow whether to u am i up to her standard .. probably she's better alrite..
finish throwing rubbish .. emo stuffs are getting on me i better run ...

hmmm .. nth much to be blogged about ... cos other than lessons i am packed with test and more test, notes and worksheet flood like nobody's business la... reallie tired.... yawns .. wish i can go back to work :/ hmmm some how nth much to be said yet lots of thots in my brain ~ seriously i dislike hong lao shi .. and ever she's gonna pick on me again i shall explode .. she treats different people in different ways alrite.. stupid .. hai...fine wadever she wanna do let her be then... dun wanna waste my breath like last yr scolding her like mad .. some hw i miss amy :/ when will she be back den?
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seriously nice few incidents to share
settings: miss khoo ask us to write an advertisement about ctss..i fell in the team with ks , sy,jas,mg and forgot who liao ..
u will be amazed by their creativeness
the teachers are:Friendly
Understanding
Caring
Kind
Energetic
Responsible
the cca are: Achieving
Sustaining
Superb
the students : Smart
Understanding
Caring
Knowledgable
Sincere
*commented by jas: i dint know tt our class have such a bunch of sick guys
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as we do our advertisement, we heard something
CTSS-ChinaTownSecretSociety
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nah dun remember much of the school's fun incident
alrite
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we have just started out slowly stepping out the first step
will i get hurt this time?
or will it be a happie ending?
loves...<3

ya.. dint manage to blog the past few daes cos lots of hwksss... yeaps... hmmm lots to say ... hehex...yeap so lets proceed on wad i wanna sae...
studies: the sense of giving up studying in this school taking higher chinese nt transferring is back alrite...i shld haf just change my sch straight at the start of school ... its reallie very tough for me living in this sort of school... the most discouraging is mdm ang la... ok .. i am slower in studies .. i may haf gd scores does nt meant tt i am smart or wad .. she's obviously biased to the person she likes la.. its nt the first time she accuses me of something .. i am speechless alrite.. i have enough of her wad for working so hard in her classs and get all the rubbish by her.. whatever...and i dun understand since i dun wanna get into jc what for joining her class and get angry by her in e end there's no use of the 2 miserable pts similarly for cca alrite..
love: getting nicer .. love him lots... still starting out so have nothing to comment on it .. maybe giving jy up is a right choice? he seems much more happier without me ... for jq ... i am happy to see him getting promotion getting on very nice with life .. for jp i have no much to be said.. and lastly my beloved evil boy.. i love u .. hehezx.... hope we can last quite a long ?
others: nothing much to be said .. just like tt lor... there may be disappointment upset and whatsoever i have nothing to comment
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some incident to share as promise from the previous post
me and les together with the san jian ke at mac
me sitting infront of gordon beside tricia and seng hoe infront of tricia...
ong seperated from us ...
gordon started poking french fries on his burger and said
must eat the french fries first if nt will poke into ur nose ..
everybody luffs and seng hoe split his food at tt moment gordon siam shoot onto ong den evryone burst into laughters...
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another incident .. hansen and other guys standing outside after cip briefing
hansen: since miss janet tan said giving can be without love however we can't love without giving den we make love with them la...
everyone: LOL!
he 's so suay tt when he said tt miss tan came out
=.=' u shld noe wad happened
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alot bt dun rmb them le if i rmb then i write
and i feel like opening a food blog den some other things la...
haha... kays

well.. long dae for me... hmm decided to blog before doing hwk .. nt reallie in e mood to do hwk... i am rather lethargic..seriously SIAN! i miss him <3 dun know where he went .. call him thrice dint answer .. he sounded weird todae.. hmph... okie recently lessons are BORING AND MORE BORING! going to fall asleep like siao la... yeaps.. went back office some interesting incident
me:*walk in &close the door darn hard*
everyone:*stares*
bryan :*laughing like mad*
jerome: jj gt miss me anot?*innocent look*
everyone seems to haf weird stuffs in their mind
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the room filled with alot of weird noises frm the cssp starhub hotline
jerome suddenly say in chinese: this is bryan's voicemail centre for chinese press one for english press two den some thing make the whole company luffs... cos its bryan zhao pai
in hokkien .. "ai gong hokkien ka gin gong"...
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third is wei sheng came in the the office..
bryan: wah towkway damn late arh so da pai late for one hr also never tell me still attitude arh
weisheng: i got sms u !!!!
bryan : dun haf dun try to bluff me
weisheng: have lor... i send alrd
every one: dun try to underestimate yean .. he sell phone de cannot sae his handfone spoil if nt he will kill u
bryan: *slam his phone on the floor* and say "wah lau i have to change fone liao"some one say my phone lousy .
weisheng: huan lor
bryan :you want me to slam the chair onto u isit...
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four , quite a long incident
phone rings and bryan pick up, chris is on e phone
chris:hello .. who called me?
bryan : got people call u meh ... here is" dun know what(forgot wad name he gave) cha kway tiao" translate in hokkien for the rest of the part .. tt will make u luff..
炒了一條一條 女 的吃了很苗條 den wadever rhyming thing he started crapping
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jerome went to the pantry den keep singing songs darn loud
evryone was joking abt alex singing the out of tune tong hua
den danny was sharing abt his brothers sighing in e end sang dunknow wad weird song some funny incident he shared
den bryan came in and close the door saying"very noisy lei " in hokkien
me tiff and everyone listening to liang shan bo yu zhu li ye
den jerome walk in snatch bryan's seat and sang some old chinese song
everyone:wah lau
bryan : where's my pole arhh or poster stand ?!
he took something and chase jerome round the office...
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u wun understand bt its really funny if u were there
some more incidents in e mac with gordon seng hoe tricia and ong to be shared next post..
lol...
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i miss my evil boy ..i love him
hmmm... its reallie a pleasure for me to meet u at this pt in time...
i hope this will last as long as possible
i love u ...
i love ricky tang wei kok!
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爱是我爱是你爱是肯定句
清清楚楚这感动分秒可以成永久

well.. yawns i am tired.. just reached hm .. haha.. went watch kungfu mahjong with les,gordon, ong, seng hoe, and my dear evil boi boi.. hehes.. lots of fun shall nt elaborate.. haha... my leg is still pain .. aw...
end of e dae.. seriously recently nth to blog abt .. cos my life is just bored and more bored...
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as we walk , i wish to hold ur hand even tighter..
as i look upon, i wish we can be together even longer..
as i miss u , i wish to stay with u even longer..
as i look at u ... i fell in love with u even deeper
muacks <3
14th of january started the story
i wish to walk with u throughout every 14th of january :P

well everyone must be wondering why i never come school .. hehez.. went to see the doc for my leg.,.. the muscle kana pull affected the blood vessel tt why so pain .. if havent recover soon must go hospital see liao.. so yan zhong:(
very dizzzy also.. haiz... bt gt dear my head okae liao.. hehes... hugs todae went out wiht him a while.. to cure his missing jj illness.. hehe...
alrite nth to write

suddenly found this song... i shld haf posted this lyrics few daes ago .. yup ...
你和我就算了吗
别用沉默代替回答
陌生得让我害怕
心像被针扎了一下
总是不提那句话
我想你是故意装傻
不是不懂得表达
还在等什么说清楚吧
我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由终
于明白那句话爱能让人一夜长大
不成熟的感情啊
让我变得小心害怕
我和你就算了吧
不想再为爱而挣扎
爱情若没有火花
至少了解后懂得放下

back to blog.. darn busy recently and very sick alrite... dizzy until like almost gg faint... leg pain like almost crippled... haiz... tired... i miss my dear alrite.. hehes... tmr he's gg out with me yay! hmm recently life is reallie simple like it alwaes does la... haha... nth much to sae abt it lor... hehez.. ending here .. short post though...
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life at this pt is my most busy and most happy ...
i hope i can hold ur hand as long
i dun think of forever bt as long as possible
i wish to walk with u ..
i love u ...=)

well.. 2dae was a long and torturous dae for me in school.. damn tired alrite... i shall do a rare thing tt i rarely do in my blog i shall sae wadever detaiils of wad happened todae even small ones...well tot todae might late cos i cant get up.. recently morning i am reallie weak like sick like tt very terrible.. forced myself to wake up and start my torturous dae in sch met my besties and walked to sch tgt.. nth much to talk abt on e way to sch cos reallie nt h much ... started with a longlong assembly talking abt aspire 07 ... sianz.. den went back class for the stupid half worst lesson of the dae.. or rather nt the worst to me... bt when they put tt as first period i am rather tired.. cos maths is the first period and its reallie energy consuming...concentrated like wad ... den followed upthe lesson i alwaes feel is the most torturous ever since sch starts... is social studs... to prevent myself frm falling asleep becos of the nice and cooling place i haf under the air con.. i brought my jacket hwever it seems to be slightly failed.. cos in e end i still half asleep... cos mdm yehida is just too naggy she have been touring ard the same old topic for the whole lesson .. tired.. and after tt was phy .. tot was poa bt in e end mr chin came in.. nice.. haha i like his lesson nt as bored cos he some hw funny la... haha.. den recess.. seriously i seems to hate recess liao .. y lei cos arhh everytime when i reach canteen wad i see is everyone flooding half of the canteen queing up lor... den being forced to eat somethings tt i dislike cos the queue shorter haha... back to class damn busy collecting $$$ den my fave lesson chem starts.. i like miss tan wen yi lor... she damn nice :D after tt was english dun reallie like cos the teacher very dao and she looks absolutely like my bro's gf tt i feel very annoy whenever she comes to my hse.. u all wun understand unless u experience it... after tt was chinese... me and ming ge nearly died of sleeping cos hong lao shi todae i reallie naggy and the class was realllliiieee boring la.. den luckily we perserved till the last 3 mins... and tts nt the end yet went change into guides uniform.. sickening.. yet met my whole bunch of cute little juniors.. they are cute and nice.. i like to see them being so close whereas my batch is like shit lor.. nvr even had my lunch cos my evil seniors dun allow me to... den do outdoor cooking cook lots of stupid food la.. den saw all the idiotic seniors back to our sch.. if they dun annoy me i haf nth to sae bt seriously U DUN HAF TO COME BACK! they get scolded by miss lee den vent their stupid anger on us again.. pls la u all graduate den dun come back becos of u all by the end of sec1 i start hatin gguides cos u all de unfairness... and nw u all are back again to bully us and even me ... evil la... idiots ... pump ur head la... tt can of ground ask us pump.. like u all nvr make mistake at all .. look at hw u all treat my dear senior jie min .. she just nvr finish her sentence u alrd sae her nvr call ur rank den pump her ridiculous i cant wait to chase u off my sch la... i guess the few leaders of this yr is damn angry with them also... idiots are idiots ... they think they very great la... hwever the few leaders also some hw make me pissed off few daes ago becos of their time conscious and alwaes ask me come down den nth to do....waste my time waste my effort rushing down and u all go for lunch sian... alrite until this i am back hm tired with my hand and leg non stop shivering cos just nw pump until no energy .. try pumping on those ground with stones and sharp sand all those see u tired anot somemore they scold like 15 mins and stayed tt position for 15 mins.. one more time i hear u saying we never greet u i will definitely shout at u sia... evil... den ate dinner and here am i ... i miss him i miss ricky~ haha.. trying to cut of the super glue alrite... :P i guess we will last... :D looking at my swollen knees i am flaming with anger abt those seniors and since i am so gd i shall nt talk more abt it...
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muacks <3

havent been blogging since there's prob on my blog .. silly gal and silly boi break liao ... why lei ask him urself alrite...
yawns tired... long dae in school.. nth much to sae actuallie cos almost everydae de school is e same lei... just slightly tired...
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i am just too foolish to believe in u and
give u another chance to hurt me again..
i am just too stupid to fall in too deeply in u
and drop a tear for u ...
i am just too stupid to pin so much hope on u right at the first place..
dun say u are sorry its just an excuse alrite...
dun play with my heart any more
its nt a toy
nt a weapon for u...
i am sorry i just love u too much tt i hate u for now
and let time erase this thing offf...
and finally <3 rtwk
:Pevil boy <3 cute girl :P

supposed i am too harsh on tt post.. i am sorry ... so i post this post after it.. cos i thinked twice after lying on my bed

sleeping darn soon.. the med starting to take effect.. hafta sleep.. leaving for msia tmr morning... i'll miss everyone... be back on sundae i supposed... i dun wanna care abt u anymore... hmmm u are reallie busy by the time u see this will be daes after i supposed:/ well ... take gd care of urself.. i know u will... take lots of rest cos u gt lots of trainings... my dear... hmm.. hope u do miss me ... supposed u will forget abt me ... i am sensitive like wad am i now... u haf lots to do so i dun reallie wanna disturb u .. u gt lots of trainings to attend so i shldnt mind of ur negligence.. i know bball is ur life.. and i hope when i come back i do sense a importance of me in ur life.. probably just a bit will do.. i hope... ya... i need nt be as impt as ur buddies as basket ball.. as ur life.. i just wish u culd show me tt i am still a bit impt to u .. i hope u rmb ur promises.. and wadever u tell me.. i just hope alrite? i havent given up cos i haf a force that pushes me .. i reallie just hope u understand.. i dint want to bring the matter up to u... cos i dun wanna tired u out.. i can see hw tired u are todae.. i can sense tt u are overloaded alrd... i just hope at least shw me a bit of attention just a bit will do... futher of this i supposed my kor knows abt it... or ricky may also know? i just dun wanna tell u right forward at ur face cos i know i may haf some words tt hurt u due to my straightforwardness.. and i dun want u to feel stress... i loveu and i cherish u ... i hope u do as well... i just hope...

back to my little bloggie... they are off for camp.. i am back at hm... yeaps.. went mac to meet him den go see them play bball while ricky came down and teach me maths den played with them... ya.. nth much to sae.. tmr i am off to malaysia... bye peeps... hahaz...
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dun know shld i leave u anot..
i cant sense ur love. yet just ur coldnes..
i am too senstitive i supposed...
too sensitive abt ur negligence..
when i start givin u the 100% trust..
i am worried..
tell me shld i leave u anot...
i know u are busy...
i know u haf a tight schedule..
bt i reallie dun know wad to sae...
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shall i leave?

tis is my no. 62 post throughout ever starting tis blog.. to me quite little sia.. hmm reallie weak nowadaes... damn irritated by my injured leg and soft and wobbly nowadays.. yawns.. hmmm had a realliiiieee long dae in sch.. fell asleep in mrs kwang class for poa... she's boring alrite... haha... okay reallie sianz... alot in my mind yet dunknow how to phrase it...
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am i emotional bcos i love you and cherish u more
or isit ur neligence have make me rather tired?
i am simply lost. shld i continue in walking forward
and giving in the best i could for u or
shld i just stop here and walk away .?
i can definitely understand u are reallie busy
i dun wanna bother u abt tis reallie...
just keep quiet tts all..
i cherish u more than i did for other people
pls dun disappoint me
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i am afraid to give u up ..

nth much todae just exceptionally busy and nth else... sianz... went collect pay after some sort of guide stuff... nth much to sae abt.. hope tmr can get mc.. cos i am too lazy to getta schh... sianz...
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i miss u .. aw...
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extremely short post

a normal weekend.. rather abnormal to me cos no work...
jq came at 11 plus.. he continues his talk with his manager to my parents. and i start using comp rather awkard.. yup ... den went out to meet tricia.. go shopping .. nice time shopping thou leg lots of blister.. went leng kee cc after tt to see him play bball.. probably ricky was right i shld try to interact with him and talk more with him ... i can see his passion for his bball... i probably dun know why is he so obessed with it bt to me i can see the bonding and everything between him and his team mates.. i love u dear.. i am sorry ... i try the best to understand u.. i went off before they ended their training finish dinner and here am i ... LoL... yeaps tired...
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for some one (dear nt refering to u la)
i am so afraid to see u ... and seriously ur attitude sucks
just a minor comment nt to demoralise u
yet telling u abt wad i tink of u doing tis job
u may think i am wrong but
suits wadever u tink
shall nt be bothered about u anymore!
i am just too foolish to keep siding u from people saying ur attitude..
idiot!

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and to my darling:
i love u .. i am sorry my words tat hurt u .. put everything behind we shall walk further.. okay? muacks... get lots of rest

alrite.. i am back home after cutting my precious hair... nt much changes bt the fringe is like shorter lor.. hmm actuallie wanna go see him train for his basket ball in e end nvr go cos his training cancelled and he dun want me go see he play match cos he pai seh:/ forget it...
just being unreasonable myself so dun hafta care abt me alrite?
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tired >< wanna sleep yet cannot sleep
i wanna work bt no slot for me hmph...
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seriously i am unreasonable ..
leave me alone...
rahhh~
i wanna go out :/

PANDA complain about me nt blogging again=( haha... she damn fierce.. wei.. sch start le so busy u shld know mah... haha.. likewise.. i am still stuck in the d1 thingy .. supposingly the whole 4 yrs of secondary school life i'll be stuck in the ds... lolz...haf a reallie nice co class parent .. Miss Tan Wen Yi ~ haha.. she very nice .. looking forward to her chem lessons.. some how dislike my maths teacher he likes to mumble to himself lei... damn irritating.. boring lessons will be as usual social studies and poa.. lol...
okay shall end of school i am sick of it ..
well i think nt just him neglecting me i am also neglecting him also... i reallie worry the love is nt strong enough.. i scared i 'll give up lei... serious...
school's boring life 's boring i still love working:D
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next shall say about some ah lian things
seriously i reallie stun when i met onto the thing
funny thing is i thought i am back to those older generations lor...
shldnt haf ah bengs and ah lians in school liek the olden daes..
lol...
second.. no use being barbarians i dislike the way u all are doing things
look at ur fren la how she treat a guy lor... i dun mean the girl start with e
alright ending here...
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i miss u .. i craves for u ... i love u

hmmm... reallllliiiieeee long nvr post liao.. alot of activities on mahh... so panda dun complain la... kay?
1st is class gathering..we went sentosa after much discussion.. realie long time since i met them .. they changed in sense of appearance.. quite happie though like we dint played much bt i enjoy the bond between everyone of us. esp after such many years... will we be the same for the following 2 yrs ? 20 yrs? the love came back :P hope we last.. hope so...
2nd is i went tricia's hse to sleep overnight.. went out with ben be4 that.. yeaps had fun .. its reallie long time since we went out again.. yeaps den i went amk .. shun bian find tiff and my beloved roadshow colleagues.. haha.. stayed overnight at tricia hse .. had a long chat and lots ..
3rd is ytd .. me and tricia went count down at raffles place.. tgt with alvin .. quite sian cos in e end the fire work happens to be another side... met dear after tt .. abit awkard la... cos sth happened lor.. hmmm yup
4th todae we went for steam boat at marina with my company .. yean paid! haha.. his gf quite pretty.. we watched the curse of the kim huei .. LOL! nt reallie nice.. find it crappy .. u dint heard wad they commented confirm u will luff... took taxi hm with alfred and tiff.. and heree am i to blog...
abt all liao.. dun look forward to my sch reopen .. very SIAN! esp when same class with those sorts of ppl... haiz
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i am start to crave for u
starting to miss u
u are starting to eat into my thoughts
and make me think of u every now and then
bt..
the past still haunts me
i am still afraid u might lied to me
tts the reason for nt trusting u as much
i am reallie afraid to believe in u
hw do i believe in u ? tell me...
<3 29/12/06