nice time when i started typing this 12:34 haha .. recently just working is my life lor seems like i am trying to stuff almost evrything dat i can into my own life.... hmmm emotional and confidence wise is going up and down like roller coaster non stop... ya... feeling so tired of wad am i experiencing.. probably i shld leave u alone ... someone reminded me of soem things on my profile ... den went to see saw some very nice memories by evry one in my life... if i can i wuld rather stop at that moment .. probably being too imature is reallie a problem tt time... wadever it is .... let it be ... my hair nwadays is like crap sia... gotta go for hair cut soon..my les sae i am a workaholic ... indeed sia... i need to earn money for my mp3 and other things mah... my dad is already paying my handfone bill so i hafta earn money to buy mp3... serious i believe in buying things and treasuring things more when i buy it myself... tts why..currently having moodswing like nobody business... too inconfident and too mind abt hw ppl look at me ...
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我只想再哭一下下... 把記憶徹底地分化...
等哭完我就會回家 眼淚我會替自己擦
我只想再哭一下下.... 假如你不反對的話
以後我不會再牽掛 可知我有多努力啊...
只有這辦法 才不再想他......

lol... found out tt my blog is like so long never update liao ... cos i busy working mah ... imagine u work till 11 plus den reach hm of cos very sianz to blog... haha ... bt saw my panda hwee chin tagged the blog i decided to blog ... haha.... yea was off ytd bt went back to the office ... feeling lazy to work recently dunknow why.... hmmm met zhirong todae find him a nice guy yet very quiet... haha.. ya.... hehe.. i am waiting for my pay to come =D den can buy mp3 liao .....haha.. yea... abit sianz... cos its middle of the nite sia... hahaz... looking forward to the chalet... yay! hehe... well i am abit sot sot la... quite happie cos the promotions all came out... max online 4000 gave out desk top max online 6500 and ultimate gave out note book ... hehes and the most of all cable tv give out sony home theatre system .. clinching deal... XD hehez....... yay!

lol..
suddenly feel like update blog again... humans are reallie contradicting when they are attached they want to be single when they are single they wished to be attached ... i also wished too yet i havent find someone whom i wanted.. just feeling very weird now.... suddenly wished to have someone by my side yet cant find yet :P
hmmm... anyway since i will be busy almost everyday i shall write my wishlist for this christmas and also incase i wanna add anything hehez... i am too thick skinned liao...
1) lol top of the list i haf: Soft toys ! flood me with soft toys lol.... i love them esp the big big banna of action city .... haha....
2) the rest is nt according to wad i wanted more.. haha... will be mayday stuffs bt i prefer u to check with me be4 buying hehe
3)music box.. better to be found in more than words and gift image
4) necklaces ...yay!
5)chocolates hehez another thing tt u can flood me with be it cheaper ones or expensive ones la...
6) cosmetics preferably from missha ... yea
7) small and cute things...
8) i wish.. if i reallie met onto some one i liked ... i wish to be given a cherries hair pin from him:p some people will know wad it means:P
9) nah .... no more i think cos i dun like ppl to buy me reallie expensive stuffs yea like i currently aiming for mp3 and a bag.. of cos i dunwish u to contribute cos i wanna be independent .. hwever i want this special gift...
a boyfren:P its impossible i suppose haha.....
done.... any more things i will add on e way ... haha...

lol.... it slike very long since i ever blog on this ... haha.... well very tired sia.... recently working at night tts why too tired to blog...... nice workng experience .. i like:D hehe.... hmmm.... well .... i treat u as a fren as a listening ear ..... nt more than tt cos i knewit was impossible ;) hehes... actuallie nth much to blog la.. onli wants to sae those who wants cable tv or max online just find me can liao:D hehes..... done..... tmr den blog la too lazy liao=X

Out here in the quiet of the nightBeneath the stars, and moonWe both know we've got somethin' on our mindsWe won't admit, but it's trueYou look at me, I look awayI wanna tell you what I'm feeling,But I don't know how to startI wanna tell you, but nowI'm afraid that you might break my heartOh why should anything so easy everBe so hard to doI wanna tell you what I'm feeling,And to say that, I love youI practice all the things that I would sayLine by line, every wordI tell myself today to take a feet a dayBut everytime, I lose my nerveI look at you, you look awayI wanna tell you what I'm feeling,But I don't know how to startI wanna tell you, but now,I'm afraid that you might break my heartOh why should anything so easy everBe so hard to doI wanna tell you what I'm feeling,And to say that, I love youWhy?Why do you turn awayIt must be, you're afraid like meI try, but I can't pretend that I,Don't feel for you, the way I do,Can't you seeI wanna tell you what I'm feeling,But I don't know how to startI wanna tell you, but now,I'm afraid that you might break my heartOh why should anything so easy everBe so hard to do,I wanna tell you what I'm feelingAnd to say that, I love youI wanna tell you what I'm feeling,But I don't know how to startI wanna tell you, but now,I'm afraid that you might break my heartOh why should anything so easy everBe so hard to do,I wanna tell you what I'm feelingAnd to say that, I love you(whisper) I love you...

lol... its a reallie nice song todae was a damn tiring dae so i shall end my blog here and tmr continue

well... tiring dae again.. went working for almost whole day>.<>.< yea... tmr also got work =D hehe.. abit sleepy now cos damn tired...
shall say some rubbish or crap be4 i sleep
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i hope everything could be undone... if i know tt earlier if i haf thought of talking to u earlier may be some hope.. yet i am too insensitive abt it.. yet things cannot be undone any more... the ring... the drawings.. the photos.... and the blog... i onlie can missed it...
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pissed off with tt bitch again.. wadever...

well... tiring dae again... ytd talk to both ben and francis ah kor until 3 am ...damn tired fall asleep within minutes actuallie wanted to pei francis ah gor for longer de bt in e end cant tahan liao...welll... wake up damn early in e morning and laze on my bed like no body business... met tricia at 10 and watched sinking japan ... touching show yet boring in front cos they give u lots of history and geography theories tt u hardly understand... haha den we les ard for a while ... i rushed to clarke quay for training all those... i was so flustered cos i was late... i went the wrong exit omg.... finallie reach there and waited for long before it starts cos gt ppl come interview jobs.. or rather alot of them went we started the training... well rot there cos is like very boring... den after tt rushed to pasir ris met les and mat and stalker... went ong's chalet for nth .. saw derrick gor gor.. haha... den went white sands and eat walk ard den tricia father drive me to mrt station boarded the mrt and nearly fall sleep .... reached hm quite late.. haha. and here am i blogging. well saw the spam on viv blog... so damn long never visit her blog ... suddenly passed her blog ... and saw that post.. hah wadever i think i know wads happening... lol... no comments here... seriously nt i tag de hor..haha... hmmm wadever it is alot of things happened this week... and i haf explained to quite a number of ppl liao... the ppl shld noe wad i talking la... hmmm.... i shall end this post here.. if nt i will talk alot of rubbish tt i dun wish to sae... yea... working tmr ... shall disappear from msn in tt period of time.. ~signing off... pissed off~ stop being bitchy la.. i know u know i readin ur blog... ~

todae the streaming results was out.. i am the fortunate one who got all the things i wanted lol... hehe.... actuallie nth much to report abt cos.... nth to sae... alot of ppl went chalet ... lol... msged him .. he said he was with some frens.. alrite shant say much abt him cos i dun wished to care liao... give u up is the onli decision i made... wad can i say? love is profound like wad ken ah gor sae... yea... i am currently quite emotional unstable ... haha like wad wl ah gor always sae me ,my les and him is always experience mood swing like nobody's business eh...
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i cant say anything abt it... yet i tot i dont care abt it bt in my heart i mind abt it so much... i feel so emotional unstable... i am just too foolish to put in too much on u... sum one ... mend my heart please...