finally end on my 2 days medical leave... haha wonder how r they in e camp .... i wanna go to(as if... haha jus jk.... i will wanna go if i am ok) haha...... well... went library today... just to return my books just incase they are going to send that card again.... hmm... nice books........ well.... nowadays trying to forget him liao ...... but of cos what i miss the most is every morning i haf him msging good morning to me.... now it seems empty to me... haha but never mind ...... thinking of writing our love story into a book..... haiz.... hmm meet onto a bunch of really great new friends ... heex... happi.... =)).... lala...... well i am tired gotta go ... see ya...........

hmm..i am tired though ..... pale... sick... drowsy... terrible.... hate to skip the camp though....alot of things happened.... hmm... well get to noe alot of frens in friendster esp guys:p haha . yea great to make frens yet i am nt going to start a relationship.... like wad one of my frens said ... its better to now new guys now and slowly become good frens when u get older ... u probably find ur mr right among them ....... den u will change from best fren to a relationship... yup i agree so putting my concentration on getting into triple sci class... yea..=) well... of cos i will start one when i found someone i loved alot.... so yea ... heex.... well gtg and rest liao cos... really sick la!
to:Quan Mei Mummy: JIa you i pray for ur dad k? i am always here for u

hmm... when will i meet onto him? well .. i really dun wish to see u treating me hot and cold ... i really very sad when i see that...... i dunnoe whther u see this blog le mer.... but i wish u noe... never mind ....... shall cheer up like wad mr teo said... concentrate on studies ba..... yeap i promise him to study hard=) heex..... hmm.. school life was ok ... shall try my best to get into triple science class.. the dark was ok la.... not very scary though.. yeapz.... ah choo going to fall sick where are u? can u appear soon? can my light or passer by come to me soon? haha dunnoe wad to say about camp cos its raining nowadays....... well life is as simple.......

well a ok ok day for me today... went out with my family for tim sum as dinner... den go walk walk at bugis.... crowded .... memories for me also .... heex.... den .... bought my precious new year skirt...... so nice black one with two belts . .... talked to jq's friend ytd ... he is e onli one i dun hate in that grp ....cos he is the nicest one.... yeap... i dint think too much about why he suddenly asked me how am i .... cos i dun think jq will ask him to ask me this question.... yup... i am trying to let it go .... well he quite good la.... but due to some misunderstanding he used to like treat me not that good though... aiya i dun mind la.... hmm... but now he treat me still ok ... i admit la ... first time i see him got quite good feelings about him...but i dun think he will like me ... really becos of some misunderstanding he wun believe that i like him lor... plus he is jq's fren ... sure willmind abt me de mer... so aiya i like de all dunlike me de=) so i must wait... yeaps... to all frens pls cherish the one beside u la....... when u dun haf a shoulder to lean on u willnoe how terrible it is....... lalal.....as for jq... aiya no pt reviving back unless he wants...even if he wants i dunno la... depends on how sincere he is lo... but i doubt this will happen... cos he very stubborn de.... and also he minds alot of his "face"... guys always like that de la.... haha... but all above i stillprefer another guy yeaps.... he is good but aiya got alot of things to say .. and problems unless he accepts me also .... yeap..... got a terrible somehow called night mare.. hope i wun be passing valentine's day ALONE... so guys .... haha ...... yeaps....... too long post liao shall end it here

when will i meet onto the one i loved and he loved me ? when will i? i cant wait le... i really wish to meet onto him ... i dun care even if he is just a passer by... i just want to meet him ... i just want to be with him .... heex..... i shall wait.... i tend to forget about jq and the past... though it reminds me when i saw those newtown uniforms .... but i dun mind any more... there isnt fate between me and him i supposed.... when there is , i supposed i will stop the realtionship from starting again..... hey guys if u all haf peopel who wants tuition pls contact me... of cos i m not the one who teaches but i am helping someone la.... so do contact me .... hmm.. thats all for today.... if we haf fate we'll get together... haha lets talk about which kind of guys i looking for... erm ....dont need to be that handsome .... most impt must be older than me , caring and filial ... i dun need alot of time for accompanying me but nt like once in dunno how many mths la.... and must give me freedom .... i will also give u ur space la...den...nt much liao ... as long as can communicate with me properly...yup ... haha ....

hmm... still going on great in school ... busying with some revision and works.... abit tiring though ... having nt enuff sleep in school is damn terrible .... becos u wanna fall asleep yet u cant .. argh.... so far so good quite happy with wad i am doing now .... i am trying to let go ... though its difficult but time will cure the wound he made... currently quite lonely though ... but there is someone whom i somehow haf the feeling ...yet i doubt he will like me ...cos our age gap was like quite big though...and he seems to haf someone he loves .... i am late i supposed... probably liking him in a corner is better... i hinted him though ... but haha.... i dunno la...fate will bring the right one to me .... but i really like him :P i really wish to haf someone for me though for this period... to the next stage of my life... where is the one? is he the one? heex... erm .... haha.... well if u really wanna noe me or make friends with other people.... or wannna haf someone to chat ... try to contact me lo... and hor if u haf someone very good and unattached must intro wor... haha.... ok ... enuff of crapping i am really lonely .... next... life was quite bad when u wake up without a person concerning about u .... well i'll be back and type the next part

hmm... still going on great in school ... busying with some revision and works.... abit tiring though ... having nt enuff sleep in school is damn terrible .... becos u wanna fall asleep yet u cant .. argh.... so far so good quite happy with wad i am doing now .... i am trying to let go ... though its difficult but time will cure the wound he made... currently quite lonely though ... but there is someone whom i somehow haf the feeling ...yet i doubt he will like me ...cos our age gap was like quite big though...and he seems to haf someone he loves .... i am late i supposed... probably liking him in a corner is better... i hinted him though ... but haha.... i dunno la...fate will bring the right one to me .... but i really like him :P i really wish to haf someone for me though for this period... to the next stage of my life... where is the one? is he the one? heex... erm .... haha.... well if u really wanna noe me or make friends with other people.... or wannna haf someone to chat ... try to contact me lo... and hor if u haf someone very good and unattached must intro wor... haha.... ok ... enuff of crapping i am really lonely .... next... life was quite bad when u wake up without a person concerning about u .... well i'll be back and type the next part

haiz.... quite a great day at first got destroyed by his friends .... cant he just let me forget him in silence ..... everything got destroyed again ... i shall try to build it up again for myself.... i shall stand up on my feet to prove them ...... well saw a lot of people today ... tends to haf memories... hahaz.... well ...... i hate the time table .... confusing and makes me work so much .. sianz...... i cant possibly not to see any newtown uniform in clementi yet i tried to accept it due to some more frens in there.... yet i hate that bunch of idiots who are simply cowards .. ... i shall not let this to affect my high mood ...... cos its such great to go back school ..... totally great u noe .. esp seeing the sec 1 so cute!!! found my friend de brother inside the crowd dint really expect him to be in my school ... heex.. well it was a great day the third time i am mentioning it .. well... when one day i really let it go i wuldnt be hating him anymore.... where's my light in this path? he is just a passer by .... i miss him yet its the past him ... well .... life haf to go on like wad i told one of e senior... i supposed i am going to step out of this situation ... wad am i contented with? seeing my friend with her boyfriend ... happily ever after=) i like it cos it brings my memories

haiz...... if one day..... we arent together ever since den........how uwld both of us be? will we be happi with another person ? or we end up being frens without toking much or we will land onto some stage like that yet havent even break up? u just dun dare to face me isit? why cant u? u shld haf told me right from e start how i shld change.. and not keep to urself until now into a very bad stage a stage that here is no turning back... u guys thought i wuldnt hurt someone that much just by not telling them...... do u noe that it hurts much more ? if u haf told i wuld change yet u dun like it at least i noe that i haf try my very best to change this relationship yet u dint say anything.... u are the one who is keeping from me and not me .. u land me on this very lonely place ... tellin myself i havent try to change anything yet... u make urself as if u are someone wonderful.... u arent ...... u hurt too much people........tell me why wuld u hurt me so long? i just wish to let u off .. yet i cant........ i simply hate u instead..... cnat u make me give it up easier......cant u just face me and tell me its over .... cant u just talk to me and tell me lets be friends instead...... yet u dint leave anything after we break....... u think that is fun that is some thing u really like isit? u are so cruel and heartless to me ....... u wanted a clear break yet i onli can tell u this is nt e way for it........ it is a failure if u really want a clear break......... u and ur frens disturbed me totally .... as i forget u u came back ....... as i try to get away from u ur frens came and pissed me off....... if u all really haf nothing better to do pls think how to be better to someone .. if ur frens thinks pissing me off is really funny .... i shall tell them they will noe it when they are in my shoes.. u told jaycelyn u'll be someone for me to rely on .. yet u dint appear did u ? u are just trying to escape from all e consequences ... i am too stupid to bear all e consequences for u just becos of ur future....... u really makes me feel that i am a fool to give up everything for u ..... u said everything is all ur fault yet u dun even carry any consequences for ur words isnt it ....... i haf heard too much of ur frens stupid words... to pissed me off.....

Yo everybody...haha sharing a blog with Jiun jia n Weeleng hor...The 3 of us has a similar characteristics for this december...Cos during this month the 3 of us turned single as we broken up with our stead...I must say that the two of them can take it easier than i do hehe...

Haiz but i really feel very...er...haiz don know how to describe leh...It is like cos he always don tell me how he feels n he keeps everything to himself...Then i cant read his mind so how would i know how does he feel...Then in the end he suddenly want to leave me n just anyhow tell me a reason and keeping the true reason from me...

It is so unfair to me loh...Although it is my fault cos i let him down at first but i really don understand y must he keep everything to himself n cant just tell me...If he had told me everything in his mind,i am sure that things would not have turn out to be this way...The things now will be sho different...

Why is sho many unhapy things happening to Gemini people...Now my world has turned sho cruel...He has made my world turned so cruel...It is now filled with darkness,loneliness and sadness...No one can hear my heart shattering just now,and now it has shattered to death,never to come alive anymore...

wad can i say? u really makes me hate u ! yes! u ....... u thought hurting me is very fun right? i bear all e consequences and all ur stupid promises yet u dint even cares about it ........u are such a coward .. u dun even dare to face problems ..... u onli noes how to say and yet not to be done ..... if u arent a coward u shld face me on ur own and not asking people to pass ur messages to me.... i faced u yet u r avoiding me ..... wad excuses such as u dun wish to tok to me ........ u just cant faced me ....... if u think hurting one and another girl is very fun i'll supposed one day u'll meet onto e same problem .... u said u'll let me rely on but where are u ? nowhere to be found ....... and to those who are quite close to u and went to my profile ... if u find it funny or u find its a joke .. i shall tell u it isnt and u all really useless... u build ur happiness onto other people's sadness if these makes u all happi well ...... when u falls on my shoes u'll noe how i suffered be4 ........
~last of e day~
u are just a passer by in my road yet i am finding my light ... though i lost my way...