will be on a long hiatus, maybe back, or might just abandon this blog for good.

爱你好像半暝坐火车啊
梦摇来摇去心惊惶
睡了一下惊醒一下
咪眼看窗外到了哪
你的爱就像星辰
偶尔很亮偶尔很暗
我不盼绚丽的灿烂
只求为光能挡风寒
是甘愿也就不怕难
不甘愿早放声哭喊
我要你什么都不管
倔强变勇敢茫然变释然
是甘愿所以能美满
不甘愿才会说伤感
我爱你心就特别软
平淡也浪漫无语也温暖
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im back blogging.
i've stopped blogging for a long time.
probably this time round, its too much to take it.
aching.
heart aching to be exact
somewhere deep in the heart feels pain, tears and wadever shit.

i wish whatever u say is just becos u are sleeping and u dont know whats happening.
i feel like shouting hysterically,i feel like giving up literally.

u wuldnt noe how it feels becos it doesnt affect u at all.

u have been changing too drastically for me to catch up, yet u can still treat it as nothing happen.

sometimes i wish to avoid it, keep it from u, hide it thought that i never know abt it or even realise it. i cant.


i feel super disappointed in u. very extremely.

i dun know how to treat u.

i want u to be wad u used to be desperately,
yet it makes me feel like im begging u for love.
when u start saying why shld i change, why shld i do this why shld i do that.
it seems to show me the fact that u are not interested in the relationship anymore, it hurts,

am i too demanding? i just want a boyfren who treats me good. is it that bad.
why every other girl could enjoy this without sacrificing bt i cant


i feel like giving up. i dont see a hope.
my hard work and sacrifices are not seen, u dun appreciate even understand
i dun wan to give in anymore.
u only know how to think of resting, im tired too
mentally and physically exhausted by the huge amt of work to do and part time job.
i hate it.
yet not being understanding, i know u tired, bt does it mean u can throw ur temper at me, flare at me and be impatient.
i'm tired too not just u
i let u get rest in mrt or wadever,
u give me that freaking look, i just take it,
u want to sleep throughout the whole night, i allow u.
everything u just wan to do it alone, den what for need me?
i think i can just leave.
u are happy without me.

u used to tell me u can timagine life without me.
i think u have forgotten abt it.

leave it.

i've tried too hard swallowing the rubbish attitudes and stuff u showed me.

im too tired.

are u still gonna change

do u still wan this relationship.

stop hurting.

心碎...

愿我会查火箭带你到天空去
在太空中两人住
活到一千岁都一般心醉
有你在身边多乐趣
共你双双对好得戚好得意
地lum天崩当闲事
就算翻风雨只需睇到你
似见阳光千万里
有了你开心的也都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永共鈙 分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空气

扮靓的皆因你癫癫地皆因你
为你甘心作傻事
扮下猩猩叫睇到也都笑
有你在身边多乐趣
若有朝失左你花开都不美
愿到荒岛去长住
做个假的你天天都相对
对木头公仔做戏

分分钟需要你 by 林子祥
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huggies

u always dun want me to find other guys and chat.
den where are u when i need u to be there listening.

life sucks.

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor,
Reachin for the phone cause i cant fight it anymore,
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time,

(Chorus)
It's a quarter after one, im all alone and I need you now
I said i wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now
And i dont know how I can do without, I just need you now


Another shot of whisky cant stop lookin at the door
Wishin you'd come sweepin in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
For me it happens all the time..

(Chorus)
Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I need you now
I said i wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now


Guess i'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all...


Its a quarter after one im all alone and I need you now,
and I said I wouldnt call but im a little drunk and I need you now
and I dont know how I can do without,
I just need you now
I just need you now

Ohh baby I need you now

Need you now by lady antebellum

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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

When you're gone - avril lavigne
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sorry babes, hunks and whoever,
i turned down like more than 10 outings meetings and wadever
I'M VERY SORRY alright.
will catch up with you guys and girls soon no matter u are dpa, dba, cts, gesps, and the list goes on.
I 'M SORRY
.......................
i wish life is better.

sigh .
speechless.
down before evrything starts
i'm feeling so down down down..
evrything is just not right.
evryone doesnt like me as much.
all e things are going against me.
how much i dislike it,
i have to stay and stand strong here.

have you seen the effort that i've put in?
have you appreciate everything i've done?
have you understnad wad i want?

breaking down.
someone pls save me.

ok. its gonna be another 9 months of wait, torture and wadever shit.

=/ blah

endless waitttttt~

我的了解让我自由
一场雨有时候下得不是时候
就像你说难过不是真的难过
你到底懂不懂我只要一个安稳的等候

你到底懂不懂
想你想得好像空气都停了...